What do you do when the universe (the divine/intuition/grace/God) smacks you upside the head and demands your attention?
I had been flapping around like a headless chicken for months, trying to find direction and purpose as I circled the drain. So many options – go back to university for a certificate, for a PhD, apply for a teaching job, flip another home … You get the idea. I was exhausted and felt like a complete flake, desperately trying to latch onto something that had relevance, importance, meaning.
I am an analogy person and have created many stories that help me better understand and share my view of Spirit/God/Divine/Universe etc… I have a picture in my head of the universe whispering a message to me, kindly, with love, reminding me who I am and what my purpose is. The first few times the voice is soft, gentle, easy to miss but also strong enough to touch my awareness. After a time, the voice becomes louder, a little more insistent, still kind but certainly less subtle. I also believe that the universe cannot be anything other than kind but sometimes, in order to get a message across, a smack upside the head is necessary (kind of like a parent screaming at a child to stop before he runs into a busy street).
And so it happened that on July 18th (while Tom and Brendan were away) I received a serious smack…such that I was left crying in the middle of the street, jolted awake and forced to face the truth…my life had to change. Within a few days I came up with a plan to strip ourselves bare of everything we had accumulated and travel. Now, all that was left was to convince my husband and son that I had not lost my remaining marbles.
Brendan loved the idea of no school (he thought) for a year. Tom and I had a lot of negotiating to do. We agreed to a basic plan on July 28th and spent the next 3 weeks preparing to leave our lives behind.
Again, I wonder…What to do with the truth?
In order to be true to yourself and your purpose in this life, you have to hear the truth, acknowledge the truth, face the truth (and any pain that may come with it), and then, like always, you get to roll up your sleeves and do the hard work that comes with being an authentic, on purpose, divinely-guided human being. All the bounty lies in wait just beyond the truth.